SADIES.

I've always thought that the idea of a Sadie Hawkins dance was really fun, so when the student council decided to make our winter formal a sadies, naturally, I was very excited. Then I realized that means that I am the one who has to ask a boy to the dance. To be honest, I'm kinda freaking out a little bit. Here's why:
A) Being a perfectionist, I have this intense fear of rejection, only intensified by all the stupid stuff that happened this fall. The idea of even asking a friend to hang out scares me now. It's really bad, I know I need to get over it, but that's what's going on.
B) Fact: I'm socially awkward around boys. Especially boys I like. Also, reconfirmed by Lieutenant Douche Bag.
C) The first date I ever went on in my entire life was homecoming this year with that stupid boy. The idea of going on a date to a dance has a lot of negative feelings for me.
D) Oh right. A boy. I need one of those. I don't even have any close guy friends that I could ask without it being awkward. Plus, I don't currently like anybody so that kind of takes some fun out of it.
That being said, I do really want to ask someone. I've always talked about how fun a sadies would be, and I'd feel like a hypocrite if I DIDN'T ask someone. If I had a good friend or liked some one or anything I would totally go for it. However, I am lacking in the boy department and I don't know WHAT I am going to do about this silly dance.